what else can i do but beg and pled the one i love to stop killing himself?? what if there is no next time..what if i lose him for ever..i cant stand the thought of life with out him..its breaking my heart to see this happening..how can i stop something i kno isnt up to me? but i cant juss sit back and watch the man im in love with fade away to a person who is so angery and not the man i kno..

heres a poem that i found..
and its true..
drugs are not something to mess with it almost took my life..and it can take your to..

You bring me up when I'm feeling down,
I can never seem to get enough of you.
You make it fun to go out on the town,
It's crazy the things you can do.

Every time we get together you make my heart race,
you kiss me and my mouth goes numb.
When your not near how I crave your taste,
I want you... every last crumb.

When you leave me I feel worse then before,
It's almost sad to see you go.
All these feelings come back and I just want you more,
Oh how I crave you blow.

What has happened to you? It's not quite the same,
The rush you gave me before.
I know it's not you who I have to blame,
maybe if I just do some more.

What's happened to me, I depend on you now,
Oh I just hate you so much.
I want you to go even though
I know I will strongly crave your touch.

Leave me be...please go away,
I don't want you no more...you have no need to stay,
Then again... you are on my mind each and everyday...
Maybe one more line...

The cocaine lady led me astray...
And I pay for it still even today...